I have an awesome friend in and I have other good friends like , and but that doesn't seem to have helped me feel less lonely like I had hoped. I just feel completely down and I don't know what to do about it. On top of that, when I feel like this I tend to get into a phase where I do stupid things that make me feel even worse in the long run through guilt. >_< Blech... I'm such a state.
Anyway... I was wondering, why do you watch me and if you think of me as your friend, then why and what is it you could possibly like about me to do so?
I feel like I don't deserve a lot of the friendship I have at the moment so I guess I just want to know why... If you want you can ask a question in exchange for my nosiness.
In all honesty... I'm dreading next year. I don't have enough money to support myself and I don't seem to have any way of making up for that. (And if you suggest getting a job then don't bother. I have gone down that route and failed miserably time and time again -- never once even got to the interview stage... Not to mention I have little time anyway.) I'm really struggling to find a solution and that's getting me down too. Partly I'm thinking of selling my stories, probably as self-published (through lulu.com if I can find the money to buy a ISBN) since I doubt a publishing company will touch me. Also possibly selling things in Second Life since my knowledge of programming has and love of fiddling with things has proven useful in my uni class to do with it.
Don't even know why I'm bothering though. It'll just fail... Like me trying to get people to buy commissions from me. Sad thing is the prices are so cheap it's laughable and yet still no one was interested... probably because the people who watch me who might possibly care are usually as broke or only slightly better off than I am. ._.
*sigh* I suck.