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.......... The design MUST HAVE ONLY 2 COLORS; BLACK AND WHITE
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*sigh*
Christmas has been a very lonely time for me this year. I've just been really sad since Christmas Day and it won't shift. In fact, for a long time today I felt absolutely dreadful (I learned of some things which made me feel very bad...) then I was up a little to the original sadness and now I'm just feeling really sad again.
I have an awesome friend in
and I have other good friends like 
,
and 
but that doesn't seem to have helped me feel less lonely like I had hoped. I just feel completely down and I don't know what to do about it. On top of that, when I feel like this I tend to get into a phase where I do stupid things that make me feel even worse in the long run through guilt. >_< Blech... I'm such a state.
Anyway... I was wondering, why do you watch me and if you think of me as your friend, then why and what is it you could possibly like about me to do so?
I feel like I don't deserve a lot of the friendship I have at the moment so I guess I just want to know why... If you want you can ask a question in exchange for my nosiness.
In all honesty... I'm dreading next year. I don't have enough money to support myself and I don't seem to have any way of making up for that. (And if you suggest getting a job then don't bother. I have gone down that route and failed miserably time and time again -- never once even got to the interview stage... Not to mention I have little time anyway.) I'm really struggling to find a solution and that's getting me down too. Partly I'm thinking of selling my stories, probably as self-published (through lulu.com if I can find the money to buy a ISBN) since I doubt a publishing company will touch me. Also possibly selling things in Second Life since my knowledge of programming has and love of fiddling with things has proven useful in my uni class to do with it.
Don't even know why I'm bothering though. It'll just fail... Like me trying to get people to buy commissions from me. Sad thing is the prices are so cheap it's laughable and yet still no one was interested... probably because the people who watch me who might possibly care are usually as broke or only slightly better off than I am. ._.
*sigh* I suck.
I have an awesome friend in
and I have other good friends like , and but that doesn't seem to have helped me feel less lonely like I had hoped. I just feel completely down and I don't know what to do about it. On top of that, when I feel like this I tend to get into a phase where I do stupid things that make me feel even worse in the long run through guilt. >_< Blech... I'm such a state.Anyway... I was wondering, why do you watch me and if you think of me as your friend, then why and what is it you could possibly like about me to do so?
I feel like I don't deserve a lot of the friendship I have at the moment so I guess I just want to know why... If you want you can ask a question in exchange for my nosiness.
In all honesty... I'm dreading next year. I don't have enough money to support myself and I don't seem to have any way of making up for that. (And if you suggest getting a job then don't bother. I have gone down that route and failed miserably time and time again -- never once even got to the interview stage... Not to mention I have little time anyway.) I'm really struggling to find a solution and that's getting me down too. Partly I'm thinking of selling my stories, probably as self-published (through lulu.com if I can find the money to buy a ISBN) since I doubt a publishing company will touch me. Also possibly selling things in Second Life since my knowledge of programming has and love of fiddling with things has proven useful in my uni class to do with it.
Don't even know why I'm bothering though. It'll just fail... Like me trying to get people to buy commissions from me. Sad thing is the prices are so cheap it's laughable and yet still no one was interested... probably because the people who watch me who might possibly care are usually as broke or only slightly better off than I am. ._.
*sigh* I suck.
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~Lleayhe Is an absolutely amazing artist who is way way too hard on herself. Seriously take a look at her gallery and watch it. She might not upload much but what she does is first class. She won 1st place in my competition
Lonely 
*more hugs*
But why shouldn't you deserve friendship? Silly question... I know
Selling your stories is a great idea! They're so cool! I'd buy them, altough I have no time to read at the moment! ^.^
Hmmm... and if you don't find the money to publish them yourself... perhaps you could take part in a writer's contest, where the stories are published... it's just a suggestion and I think you've had this idea already... but... I don't know... I'd like to make you feel better...
I' sorry, if I talk rubbish... I'm really bad in things like cheering up.
Well good to know I at least have one customer.
I've never come across those kinds of competitions to be honest. :/
I don't think, that I'll be the only one!
Hm... me, too... it was a friend of mine, who suggested another one to publish her works, cause she writes, too... but she said, that you have to pay the publishing yourself, which is very expensive, yeah and then my friend told her, she should take part in such contest... which are arranged by the great publishing companies...
^.^
Hihi.... I think everybody thinks like this... but if many other persons read your stories... and I think it's like this, and they mostly said, they're good, then you should try.
Äh... question.... is there any other word in english, which means the same as "think"?
With the same tense as think? [link]
Hey, thankies.... cause I've written "think" about three times in one sentence... and I imagined... that this is too much! ^.^
Cause in our german lessons, we've learned, that it's bad to repeat one word more than twice in one sentence... and it really doesn't sound good!
^.^
Stupid problems!
It's bad to repeat a word at all in the same sentence or in a sentence either side of it to be honest. You should avoid it whenever possible unless you have to go to ridiculous lengths to get around it then you should probably rethink the structure rather than the word choice.